My mom gave up all her parental rights and left when I was just 8 months old. Growing up, it was always just my dad and me. Whenever I asked about her, he said she never called, never asked about me, never cared. I grew up believing she was a ghost alive somewhere, but dead to me. I never met her. I never heard her voice. She was just a missing piece of my story. Then, a year ago, something happened that I could never have prepared for. I was at work a law firm where I’d been building my career when I saw her name on the appointment schedule.
My heart skipped a beat. It couldn’t be, I thought. But when she walked through the door, there was no doubt. It was her. My mother. She didn’t recognize me. To her, I was just another face behind a desk. But to me, she was the person I had wondered about my entire life. I felt a storm of emotions — anger, sadness, curiosity. I wanted to scream, Why did you leave? Why didn’t you want me? But all I could do was sit there, frozen.
As she signed papers and spoke with one of the attorneys, I studied her face. The way she smiled politely, the lines around her eyes, the sound of her laugh — it was strange, because in some of those small details, I saw pieces of myself. She left the office without ever knowing who I was. And I didn’t stop her. That night, I cried harder than I had in years. Not just for the mother I never had, but for the closure I thought I wanted but didn’t get.
Still, in that moment, I realized something important: family isn’t always the people who bring you into this world. Sometimes, it’s the ones who stay, who fight for you, who raise you with love. My dad was both my parents. He never left, never gave up, never stopped loving me. And while I may never have answers from her, I already have everything I need from him.
